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At the moment I Select…… – The Weight of My Weight

When this mug was new, it stated At the moment I Select Happiness. Happiness was on this fairly gold lettering. Nicely, I’ve continued to place this within the dishwasher, and the Happiness has worn off. Now every time I’ve espresso from this mug, I take into consideration what it’s I Select for myself for the day.

Yesterday I selected to Breathe, take into consideration our new grand child and get by way of the day.

New grand child?? Sure!!

Rockwell (7 lbs 6 oz and 20″ lengthy) was born Tuesday morning round 5:00 am. Mother and child are wholesome they usually could get to come back dwelling tonight!

Daddy and Rocky…..

Grateful for Rockwell because it’s been a tricky few days right here and all of us wanted some excellent news. That is child quantity two in our household born throughout Covid, so we missed out on that second within the hospital ready room pacing in nice anticipation for the child to be born, then the chance to be with mother and pa within the room and maintain that candy little man.

I thought of that second all day yesterday. I thought of all that’s lacking proper now.

Tess and Manuel drove in from Dallas on Monday. Whereas they have been driving right here, there was an hour by hour replace on how everybody was feeling since Christmas Eve didn’t go as deliberate. Sooner or later it grew to become clear that getting collectively was not going to occur and we canceled yet one more household get collectively.

So not solely did we’ve got to downsize our Christmas Eve on the final minute from 19 to 7, we needed to cancel our huge household get collectively scheduled for Tuesday night time. That’s the large occasion for us. That’s the one the place all of us collect in the lounge and I go out 19 stockings that I spend the vast majority of December procuring to fill. Watching as every particular person pulls one merchandise at a day out of their stocking is my Christmas morning.

Christmas was cancelled.

It. Is. Carrying. On. Me.

I’m so completely happy we have been in a position to all collect on the cabin in October and have a houseful for Thanksgiving. These steps backwards with Covid the final a number of days have introduced a lot disappointment and put me in an emotional funk.

The final two weeks felt off and I’m wondering if someplace in my thoughts, I knew it wasn’t going to occur. The 19 plastic luggage with names written in sharpie on them, nonetheless stay within the basement in a field as we try to resolve a intelligent solution to give everybody their stuffed stockings.

At the moment as I sip my espresso from this brightly coloured purple mug, I’ve to ask myself….

How will I select to spend at present?

We have now a wholesome new member of the family, Tess and Manuel are right here, and sooner or later at present and tomorrow we are going to get in a go to with my mother and pa.

Yesterday Mike was gone many of the day working and the three of us knew we’d be spending the day on the home.

Tess and Manuel determined to work on a puzzle and that began recreation day.

When was the final time you performed Monopoly? The three of us agreed that we’d by no means performed as adults. After a 5 hour recreation, we realized rather a lot, however could by no means play once more. lol

I used to be the primary one to bankrupt in Monopoly, so I opened my Trailer Home and started working.

I bought outdoors the final two days for lengthy walks and labored on filling my head with optimistic ideas. Being outdoors and inhaling contemporary air did assist.

Surrounded by sweets now……I’ll freeze or trash something left at present.

Sorry for the downer publish.

At the moment I Select Happiness. Somedays that takes a really conscious effort.

“love the life you reside, reside the life you like”

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